Sad Days :-( Its all gone wrong

My return to South Africa didn’t go as I had planned. I’m not going to go in to details but after 10 days I lost the girl I loved and am now back on Mersea Island at Mum and Dads feeling like utter shit. I Feel that I’ve failed my one year trip by coming back 6 months early. At this point I can’t see me getting off my arse and going travelling again let alone ever trusting anyone again. I hope these feeling will fade in time and I fly off to some other random place but we shall see.

Don’t get me wrong. Some of my time in SA was great. I met some lovely people including Ellie’s family who were so warm and hospitable and of course Mel and Jaco who I stayed with for the 10 days. I’m sorry I will miss their wedding.

I do have one story from my short visit to SA. I was sitting in the airport viewing lounge as I had half a day to kill while I waited for my plane. Many schools from the local townships come to visit the airport on school outings. A group of teenage girls came and sat down next to me laughing and giggling and trying to take photos of the sad deperested Sam slumped in the corner of the room. They started speaking to me and then the next minute I know I’m sitting in the middle of about 20 kids telling my travel stories. It was so much fun as they were teaching me how to speak Zulu, laughing at me trying to dance (laughing at the poor white boys attempt of booty shaking) to the delight of all the of passengers who were in the lounge. I have plenty of photos of the crazy 2 hours. The teacher even wanted to show me the school in the Township, I would have gone if I didn’t have to leave later on. Its a shame this happened on my last day of being in Africa. I doubt i’ll come back here for a very long time.

The sad thing is this whole mess has overshadowed my trip and instead of talking everyone to sleep with my travel tales I have to explain why I’m back. I can’t even to bare to look at my photos from the first time I was in South Africa which is a great shame as it was the best time ever, so much fun. :-)

The hardest thing about splitting up with someone in the Web 2.0 generation is that you are constantly reminded of them. Weather its having mutual friends on Facebook, seeing photos on Flickr or reading and writing blogs. You just can’t seem to get away from anyone anymore, I’m not sure that’s a good thing really. I’m sure in a few months I will heal and be back to normal. Still, ‘I get by with a little help from me friends’ :-) I do have a great bunch of friends all over the world.

No more comedy cocks for a while.
Ok one more then.

The 5 break up songs i listened to on my way back from SA to the UK
1. Fake Plastic Trees – Radiohead
2. Love will tear us Apart – Joy Division
3. God Only Knows – Beach Boys
4. Boys don’t Cry – The Cure
5. Teardrop – Massive Attack

Maybe next month I’ll have some news for you, but this wasn’t how I planned my trip!. Hope to see a few people when I’m back
Love Sam