Sad Days :-( Its all gone wrong...

My return to South Africa didn’t go as I had planned. I’m not going to go in to details but after 10 days I lost the girl I loved and am now back on Mersea Island at Mum and Dads feeling like utter shit. I Feel that I’ve failed my one year trip by coming back 6 months early. At this point I can’t see me getting off my arse and going travelling again let alone ever trusting anyone again. I hope these feeling will fade in time and I fly off to some other random place but we shall see. Don’t get me wrong. Some of my time in SA was great. I met...